Conclusion...

Wow! 'Pat King Pat Kok' it's already 01.01.2010. It's been so long since I blogged I thought I will never blog again.. For me, early 2009 was really good until things turned sour.. still it was a good year for me, relationships wise.. Let's recap..

The Good :

1) I went back more often to see my mother, my sister and my son. Overall i feel our relationship has improved, though there are still some grey areas between me and my sis..

2) I got out from an abusive relationship, the person died mid year and i went further into a journey of self discovery and my emotional & soul healing

3) My work was smooth and even though full of stress and working late into midnights and public holidays, I've received pro-rata bonus and cash incentive from my boss

4) I met a bunch of great brothers and they have been true friends to me so far, when they knew that I am down, they will call to cheer me up

5) I also met a bunch of great sisters and they have also been there for me. We have had countless ycha sessions, makan makan (bbq, dimsum, especially dimsum and wantanmee too) or just plain hanging out at my place.

6) I've gotten a really good housemate on top of 2 other existing fantastic ones

7) I met someone new and didn't expect romance to blossom until it did. I am fortunate to meet someone who has such beautiful soul and is a sensitive being. Having said that, the person is also like everyone else including me, with flaws :P

8) I also met someone who has tirelessly adviced me on what i could do whenever i encountered a problem and this person still and will continue to help me yet do not want to receive any form of gesture or repayment in return

9) I had my life reading and the result was as expected but now I knew better what to do just still wondering how i could progress and make my life more kaya raya.. muahahahahhah

10) I also found a true person in my colleague & who is, i believe over time will remain a good friend

11) I have also met many more nice, kind, understanding, wise, intelligent, empathic brothers and sisters from Fatine's Right to Stay Together group

12) I met very very good doctors who tried their best to help me get my health back on track

13) My son forced me to watch 'Chowder' with him and well, all I can say is... my son really has great sense of humour!!

14) Thanks to my sister and her 2 lovely toy poodles Chester and Bubble, I have kinda gotten my fear of dogs outta way.. The moment I like best is when i sat on the couch and both of these sweeties will each be on my left and right side, lying down, letting me 'kepit' them..

15) My mom said something to me that brought tears to my eyes. I didn't know that my mom will, till today still think about my welfare so much so until she said to me what she said that very night. For 1/3 of my life i resented my mom because as the eldest I had to be well.. the eldest.. and 2/3 of my life i still can't make peace with the resentment. my 3rd part however, see things my 1st & 2nd part didn't see & i have grown to admire my mom more and more and now i finally understand all my many why-s with her.

16) Having grown up with my stern mom, i didn't know she was capable of sense of humour and to see her jokingly tell my son something really funny cracked me up.

17) Having seen how tight my sis and my son when they are together is a very warm feeling.. funny how they both teased each other and playfully do those silly little things are really great moments to cherish.. and my son he is suuuuuuuuuuuuch a drama queen....

18) I am fired from my job and my last day is next Wednesday.

19) 1st my landlady wanted to take back the unit where i stay for major renovation then changes her mind and instead do smaller repairs so i can continue to live comfortably in this house. The most heartwarming part, she called me a friend / a daugther.

20) I am lucky to meet many good ppl over some bad eggs. they are, in their own individual ways, helped me to gather myself and shout 'coming through'.

21) my darling got married in Singapore!!

22) My sis got a promotion and is now in Singapore with new environment and new challenges


The Bad

1) My health had worsen but it is okie, i can still manage it until Nov when it reached to it's peak (in terms of how bad it is)

2) My hospitalization bill i claimed using Prudential due to lack of cash and I can't claim from the bloody company

3) Met some rotten ppl behaving like princesses and do not understand what is the full meaning of friendship and semangat bergotong royong but as they say good eggs bad eggs, eggs are everywhere.. LOL

4) My uncle (My 1st aunt's husband) passed away due to lung cancer and to see my son so saddened by the fact. Thank god my boy understands a little of the concept of life and death. This uncle of mine, he is really a fantastic man, as long as i can remember ever since i was a child, he has always been cheery and all my other extended family members do like him alot. I guess god loves him more and his work is done on this earth

5) some unfortunate squabbling with sister and having to hear her insult my mother too.. it was painful for me not only because my mom was cuss but also makes me wonder how can a person achieve happiness by being so angry..

6) My good colleague left the company and work life has been unbearable since

7) Being hassled and somewhat harassed and insulted by my ex husband & some of his family. The hard part is to hear it from my mom. Don't know why some ppl just can't go straight and do what they say and say what they meant.

8) My ex husband finally wanted a proper divorce (he wants to remarry) after no show twice in 2002 at the lawyers office. after agreeing to both his and my T & C, he went and go back on his words.. hence no. 7 happened.

9) Ppl still will blame the women when anything happened, except the good happenings.

10) My weight playing see-saw between 71 - 73 and went down to 69 then 68 to me swelling again and currently at 70.5.. LOL

11) Still so many bigots and so many extremist who really doesn't know what is humanity, what is facts, what is empathy, understanding, love and what being human is all about..

12) still seeing ppl repackaged and market passion, lust, obsession and infatuation, butterfly as love..

13) Have an extremely rotten egg for a housemate (she came in with the new good housemate) who is a cheater, a manipulator and also a conwoman who has conned many ppl that i've met. So i am fortunate the maker does love me and the things she did to me, she had to repay it :P

14) Lost all 3 of my housemates due to 1st attempt of landlady trying to get the house back for reno..

15) 1 of my housemate had to leave because there is an unfortunate incident happening at home and she has to be there with her family

16) I couldn't attend my darling's ROM due to the stupid immigration whose machine is unable to read my Mykad (maybank could, goodness, the gov should invest in better equipments) and the 2nd time, they didn't open and didn't declare it in their bloody website.. inefficient betul!


The Ugly

1) Politicking happening in office due to scheming beings...

2) My boss also participated in it

3) Having known me as a temperature sensitive person, turned on full blast 5 air-conds from the initial 2-3 units and get me more and more sick.

4) politicking even harder to get rid of me from the office. Letters issued to me was intended to shame me and defamed me to get me to resign but I didn't budge because I was not in the wrong and i won't take it lying down :P

5) Some idiots who dunno the meaning of friendship and teamwork and semangat ber helping helping...

Let's hope for a better 2010.. I am still a person who, am too lazy to make a resolution because a lazy person will hardly see the resolution through.. HAHA!