Part 5 of 7 seasons of loneliness

Lust

This is a contradicting subject to be discussed.. Why?

I love and loathe this subject... It could be the best thing that could ever happen to you.. or it could be your worst nightmare..

Love

Because when you are lonely.. you will go out and flirt.. and by flirting, you might meet someone who could be 'an awesome night out', 'a friend with benefits' or he/she 'could be the one'.

Because when you fell in love with a piece.. you just can't stop thinking about it and planning future usages with it..

Because you can't get enough of it.. then you will always crave for it.. forever and ever and ever.. until you finally gotten sick of it~

Loathe

Alamak!! Need explaining ka? OK la.. here goes..

It causes havoc, breaks up relationships, marriage, trust, honor *please la.. not everything I say must be sexual geh mah..

No self control hence cheating behind partner (I mean if you guys have an open relationship and an understanding then I faham la..). It could be due to feeling inferior, constant need to be above others and be No. 1 as lover *chuckle at the fool* (Why you have this obsession to prove something about yourself? If applied to work, might make a tycoon out of you..), gives you the rush, the butterfly you mistakenly took as love.. *roaring laughter*

Addiction to constantly diy-ing to a point that you are as sore-ish as your soiree..  sitting so many hours in front browsing and going starry starry eye...

'How would you like to pay Sir/Mdm/Miss'? Swipe, swipe and swipe.. can feel the wind gushing to the next person's face when hand motioning that flicking action...

Make use of others for your financial gains, plunder and conquer.. trying to capture and make a sui yue out of your pursuer(s), breaking up people's home life and serenity.. Gives you a false sense of security that someone wanted you more than they really dare to admit to and vice versa..

Drives you to financial ruins because you can't help and say, 'oh.. very cheap only.. can afford another piece'.

Kills you with 'rich man diseases cause you can't help it.. 'ken..not..re..sist..must..have..no..mat..ter..what'. The pic below is totally dedicated to this very sentence.. LOL

*picture it's hand trembling after stuffing yourself and tak boleh jalan*

LOL.. Lust.. love em or loathe em.. My brain juice just dried.. else this would be my favorite topic to bitch and blog about.. so juicy you know.. marigold peel fresh's pulp also kalah face down ler!!

Lust makes an user out of all of us.. So, are you gonna be morally using / be used or immorally using / be used? Choice is entirely yours.. Me, I wanna be inter-using... Truth be told, you can never live life without using or being used.. The only difference? Only you can tell yourself when you care to be honest...

We should have a World User's Day.. How about that?

Safe sex in "O" during IDAHO & International AIDS Memorial Day

Last Sat I was in 'O' to support PT & giving out safe sex kits to everyone : straight / lgbt..

Was happy to meet some who were downright friendly :

Me : May I stick you?
Him : No no...(with a cheeky smile)
Me : *suprised*
Him : You can't stick me..I don't want to..but you can stick me with the red ribbons..

LOL!!

Alas, I, with other friends from the community was taken aback by the display of emotion of others who are either treating us like credit card sales or that we have AIDS when we handed out red ribbons & condoms..

Well.. you win some.. you lose some.. *sigh*

That brings a round of discussion on...

SEX.. TO HELL WITH IT OR BETTER BE SAFE?

I think it's a daily struggle that 1 fights to stay alive and the other is throwing caution to the wind..

What is it with human and it's misconception that they are indestructible?

Does it gives you hope to fight for what you can achieve? Does it not give you a false sense of security?? >> (my late gf taught me this word)

Why the unnecessary hesitation when it comes to protecting oneself? I mean.. I see many on a daily basis trying to protect their hearts from being broken, protecting the youth so it will not be devoured by age and the spouse will not leave once the shell wilted away and see that it is lacking in body, within?

Then why, pray god.. do we forget to protect our most and i must stress this >> INNERMOST being of one self that is our SEXES?

For any women out there who thinks that you might not be susceptible to any sexual diseases.. THINK AGAIN..

I knew those who never used protection though was previously infected by STD and never bother to protect their existing & future partners from it (you know who you are).. IF THIS IS CALLED LOVE THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT REAL LOVE REALLY IS..

Food for your thought >> I read AIDS : Women & Epidemic (I think this is the title..I read it more than 10 yrs ago & the book is now with my darling for several years). This book practically changed my whole life & outlook on my sexual life..made me rethink about safe sex practices, protecting yourself & your love ones..

HAPPY SAFE FUCKING EVERYBODY!!

Dinner with 3 : Manhattan Fish

I was crazily restless on Thurs and then I called up my besties and asked them out for dinner & a drink..

After much dilly dallying from my part - We finally came to conclusion with Manhattan Fish in Pyramid.

Our server was nice & the outlet manager (i think) Fadzil was very warm too..

I ordered Garlic Butter Mussel and it comes with either Bruschetta or was it actually a Baguette???

Moving on..

I also ordered a serving of Fried Country Mushroom and add ons of Fried Calamari & something else which I can't remember (It was 2 days ago~)

Triple 2 had a Cod fish with rice (which i can't remember the name as well) .. & agent 631 had a Caesar Salad.. minus the eggs (they ran out of stock) and then Fadzil up the irresistable offer of 10% discount from our ttl amount (so generous!)

I also had a clam chowder & there's a promo going on with soup + bottomless drinks @ 9.90. Both of my besties had corn soups. They are both delicious but i prefer saltier stuff that night.. so clams UP!

Then Fadzil also suprised us with another round of his generosity by serving us a free Fried Whitebait which is really nice.. has a look of small little prawns (not ha mai or he bi)

After our 10% discount as promised, our bill came up to a total of 91++ which is almost half of what we spent together in Bubba Gump..

VERDICT : Bubba Gump hands down over Manhattan Fish (Sorry Fadzil)

Then we proceed to Starbucks & were enjoying another round of chatting about sex (don't we always), about our personalities, about relationships, hair & make up & our disgust with *shriek* cockr....es!!

We can't help but noticed another table of 2 girls & a guy was staring at us even when we leave our table..Some ppl don't know how to stare politely...hahah!!

Maybe we were talking too loudly about sex..or about virginity..haha!! Gotta remind ourselves to talk softer...or maybe louder so they'd be too embarrased to look at all..hehehe!

I had a great time that night going loca with you 2 & thank you Triple 2 & Agent 631 for another wonderful outing.. always! Can't wait for another round..soon I hope!!