Fugly

Things are fugly these days. My patience are running dangerously low, i tried my best and it is just being scraped for all the wrong reasons..

I want my patience back or give me sensitivity.

Thank you. This is crappy

Full House!!

Funny to think few months ago my place is practically empty and I was busy hunting for housemates..

Now it might be a FULL HOUSE afterall!

Things seemed to be looking up but I now have a new set of problem : finding space! LOL

Seemed like I am entering March with a good start.. let's hope my luck didn't run out and I'd get a great job while someone up there is at it too..

This proofs human is greedy, just want more and more (pointing finger at moi)

Time to pack up and no time to lose..

Good luck to myself!

The quest for happiness...

Funny how this topic is the most discussed in every human life, every single second, every single household and every single corner around the world (round shape no corners right?? hahahaha) and yet it is the most elusive to us human beings..

'Is it a delusion?' you might ask.. 'Is it an impossible mission?' you might ask that too.. but it is never elusive, never a delusion and never an impossible mission.. it just take guts, honesty and knowing what do you want for yourself, out of this life of course...

Too many times, we chicken out of our quest because we think that the situation will / has improve.. that maybe, the person or situation has changed and we finally get what we really want out of it..

It is so wrong but these are the lies we told ourselves.. we coddle ourselves so that we don't need to start all over again, charting unmarked territories, being intimidated by ppl / situation and that we can't face another heartache.. or it all boils down to the insecurity that we will grow old being alone, withering in the dark.. worst, to die with cat or dog litters all over our body (including the face) LOL

I have dire needs to break out and be on my quest for happiness.. there is no sure way to do it but sooner or later i have to try it out.. hehehehe..

Are you on your quest  for happiness too? If you are, I wish you all the luck in the world.. remember, do not lose hope.. some human are still good at heart, maybe not good to you but surely good to someone they choose to be good to.

Adios cara mia(s)!

This is definitely 18SX

(FYI, it took 3 attempts to do this blog.. so tiring)

Well, a friend of mine kena this sorta bot before and has posted her convo in a blog too.. I know, i know, I am not a copycat.. but this is far more hilarious than what she had before.. so sharing is caring.. ENJOY!!

Session Start : Monday, February 15, 2010

Her : think we chatted before right?
       : i'm sorry i get to be forgetful at times!! how're you
Me  : lol
       : me too
       : did i meet you over in lab
Her : i'm 24/f.. u?
Me  : i am okie, 30/f
Her : nice, i just got out of the shower and finally got some time to relax... what are you up to?
Me  : I almost thought you are a bot
Her : ok, now you really lost me?? bot??
       : nice.. i am feeling a little naughty.. lol.. u?
Me  : erm, i am in a relationship
       : i am mono, sorry
Her : i don't want a relationship for now,, i just want to have fun.. maybe later down the line
Me  : but plain chatting is fine
Her : yeah, i'm horny lol.. sorry if that's forward.. is that cool?
Me  : hey whatever tickles your fancy.. lol
Her : I need a man who can make me squirt.. have you ever made a girl squirt?
Me  : i just won't participate in the sexual talk... you are definitely a bot!
Her : come over!! lol i'm horny
Me  : i am definitely not a man
Her : lolz yeah i need it babe.. i'm so worked up.. wanna see what i look like?? i've got a sweet a** that loves attention
Me  : you are hilarious now.. and i am planning to turn this into a blog
Her : do you cam?

MY GAWD!! so, there we have it folks!! a more responsive bot!! Good night everyone & enjoy!!

Do you remember?

A friend of mine posted a note on her high school crush and it got me thinking about mine.. mmmmmm...

I think that is always the fun part of being in school.. and of course making new friends, making the teacher pissed off... lol

I remember the day I met her... K was her surname.. I always wonder why many girls, especially in our school are crazy about her (she didn't do anything to call for such attention but she got it, haha and was quite embarrassed by the whole attention lavished on her).. I really don't get it, back then..

By the 2nd or 3rd year of high school, we were classmates. We have the school's charity organization called 'Good Neighbours'. They sell items for festive seasons to raise money to help our school's students who are financially challenged (I was one of the beneficiary). Every single celebration, be it CNY, Val's Day or Mother's Day & the likes, her desk will be full of those gifts.. sent by admirers... full until they spill..

I had the opportunity to befriend her.. lol.. we did several projects together.. especially fashion shows.. she is always the man.. and she has the best walk, best swagger down the aisle, hands down! her swagger *sigh* thinking about her always made me chuckle/gave me a silly grin and feeling like I am back in school with her again..

Our school is quite cool, we have PERBAMA & LITSOC. Every week we have an activity of some sort, sketch, fashion show, dance competition, poem and what not.. I remember once we did a sketch. I played the promiscuous role.. (life imitates art or art imitates life.. I wonder.. haha!) I got pregnant and was shunned by society... I know it's a bit too moralistic but we were 14 - 15 yrs old.. come on! There's 1 particular sketch by our other schoolmate which is hilarious but that's another story for another time..

After that, K & J (another classmate, who happened to attend the same primary as me but in afternoon session, mine was morning) teased me so much about me losing my virginity in the sketch till I cried (I am a crybaby, even worse then.. but come on, virginity issue was BIIIIIIIIIIG back then.. hahaha!) and of course i merajuk la! LOL.. (remember, 14 - 15 yo)

So i ceased to ignore her until K can't stand it and finally pujuk me.. by then I had actually developed a crush on her. always think that she is so handsome and so beautiful and so so so... and she has really beautiful strength and heart for a person....playful and cheeky too, i might add.. (yes, quite the perfect 1) hehehehehe!

Since I am an avid reader and was a big fan of R.L. Stine's Fear Street (she was too, so she always lend me books.. lucky me!) so she proceeded to 'bribe' me with the new books so I'd talk to her, 'choi' her again.. Like a sucker, I took it! hahaha!! And because of that, we got teased and rumor has it that we are actually together.. lol..(i was of course secretly delighted with that.. hahahahah!)

About 10 or 11 yrs ago I saw her in her dad's shop.. and she still looked the same, albeit a little more shy with me than I ever recalled..I have not seen her ever since.. Funny how we always remember the 1st crush and how it shaped our wants and needs/requirements that we want in our future partners too..

This story still make me chuckle after 15 - 16 yrs now.. It is such a nice thing to travel back in time, back inside memory lane.. do you want to share a story about your high school crush too?

A tribute to O.S.

This is a special heartfelt tribute that I want to dedicate to 2 person who I had the pleasure of unexpectedly crossed path with in my life.

O & S.. YES, definitely you & you that I am referring to :")  (not an operating system, mind you)

Back to them..

They have both appeared in my life when time is of essence, when hope is lost, when need is dire..

And I am forever grateful and indebted for that, for their loving kindness and helpfulness.

Without them both, my dark clouds wouldn't have been lifted..

They are my guardian angels or 'yan kongs' as we chinese put it...

I know you both are not seeking for any repayment from my part but I just have to say this to both of you :

THANK YOU FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE, THANK YOU FOR SHOWING ME THE WAY, THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE TO GUIDE ME & COMFORT ME..

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!

Come & Gone..

For my few mths of misery and distress, I am only worth that much...

Nevertheless it is over, dark cloud departed.

Then it happened.. Streamyx tak jalan..

~!@#$%^&*()_+

Now I am back to using her lappie T.T ...... Have a great day everybody!

Tomorrow seemed like a deciding factor...

Tomorrow..

Part of me wishes it to go away, go into hiding, just do not come to me..

but..

what needs to be done, needs to be done... let's hope both event will work in my favour.. I can't wait for the 1st part of the day to be over and done with.. I really need it to be over and done with..

Too many black clouds, some partially left but some, especially this huge massive chunk still hovers. It should now leave before i can arrange for another chunk's departure date..

Black clouds go away, go back to the sky, where you will rain and make fruitful the earth cos you ain't making me fruitful by raining on me..

I wanted to blog about something funny

I wanted to blog about something funny that happened.. but really can't recall it.. it was so funny, it escaped my memory card..

Maybe it's time to upgrade my RAM and Memory Card too..

Anyone specializing in Human RAM & MC?? Anyone??

Movie nights..

Lately been watching loads of movies with gf.. we kinda started a month ago with 'American Tail' with it's infamous and cute + off-key 'Somewhere Out There'.

Then it became a cross of rom com, animation, avatar, zombie/horror.. all over a steaming hot kapal.. or porridge.. but mostly kapal.. but alas, we ran out of the sweet sweet brown sauce T.T

So 2 nights ago, we were watching 'I love you, Man!' ngmmm.. it was okie lor.. then we watched 'Ghost of Girlfriend Past'. Matthew McConaughey is sooooo hot.. NOT!!!!

The whole time i looked at his face, i shudder.. UGGHHHH~ and i think to myself, why in that movie, there's no lengchai or lenglui.. the more decent looking guy is that Brad character whom they called 'the wedding beefcake that the bride flew in'.

Then there was 1 scene, I can't remember which one or what exactly happened then my baby said :

"That was that.. the one.. Try To Forget Sarah Marshall" (actually i can't remember the exact content of the conversation but i just remember that funny title she blurted out!!)

.....................................

MUAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHHAA

(it was supposed to be Forgetting Sarah Marshall)

I don't know what is so funny at that moment but it was 1 of those thing that you suddenly find irresistably and crazily funny for no reason at all..

So of course i can't stop laughing for the next 1 half hour or so.. everytime she jiggle or do that wrapping arm against chest thing *HMPPHH!* i burst out again, remembering 'Try To Forget Sarah Marshall'

She looks exactly like this when I can't stop laughing :

AND I STILL THINK MATTHEW MCCONAUGHEY IS UGLY!!!!

Then I tell her, I can't wait to blog about it.. and she starts to look like this..

Oh my god!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

The we go ahead and watched 'Accidental Husband'. It was definitely a better movie than the other 2 but 'Try To Forget Sarah Marshall' really takes the icing..

I am still laughing when we head to bed after.. HUA HUA HUA!!

Girl Day Out!!

It's been long since I see them..

Especially her.. so miss it.. LOL

As usual the menu is same same.. never change, we always go to the same place regardless.. LOL

So teman my darling buy Shu Eumura lo.. and C was busy trying on lipgloss. The nude 1 looks great on her but so does the red 1.. My darling begs to differ though.. No picture.. sorry everyone.. hahaha (This is the peril of a no camera in mobile holding person T.T)

Anyways, C ended up buying more products in there than my darling.. they both ended up with more than 300++ products in their hands!!! LOL..

So we continue, jalan lagi, get clothes, get shoes then get socks, get boxers for darling's hubbie.. walk until feet also patah T.T but I did enjoyed myself because it been long since i hang out with the old girls..

I got a happy + sad news too.. someone is leaving me but is for the greater good...

I LOVE YOU, BE SAFE ON YOUR FUTURE JOURNEY!!

R.I.P.C.

I just restarted my computer.. then it happened.. I keep hearing beeps..

gone.. i think it's gone..

I am now subjected to use her laptop... arggghhhh..

I WANT MY PC BACK.. COME BACK TO MOMMA!!

Too happy too soon...

When i just about accepted the fact that.. I'm gonna have new housemates.. I was given a probability that I might not have it anymore..

Why ppl treat it like it's a game.. want or don't want also can't decide in their life?? Have to always drag ppl around like a puppeteer with the puppet?

Now seemed to be back to square 1.. SO TIRED...

~!@#$%^&*()_+

The day after...

So the day after, on 3rd, again she suggested to go out, makan & shopping and what not..

Things supposed to be done but didn't, I was really hungry, she won't wake up and I got really really upset..

By time we were out from house, it is close to 8.15pm.. so I teased her.. "it's going to be... it's going to be.."

"I will not be deterred and I will accomplished my mission." (I think this was what she said)

So we went to 1u, with intention to Zanmai and shopping..

We queued for quite a bit, no 1 willing to give up their seats.. *tsk tsk* is it our culture, sudah habis makan, restaurant still full but we will not surrender our seats? Finally we were seated next to the conveyor belt.. WOOHOOO.. what else right? TARUH 9 9!!

Tau Tau, 10pm already.. only get to Zanmai.. lol..

This time she too scared to stuff herself, in case of re-run or repeat from previous night take place again.. we kinda over estimated our tummy's capacity.. This is what we had :

1) Yee Sang

2) Kani avocado salad

3) Several plates of sushi, I can't remember at least 5 plates

4) Salmon Sashimi

So we had to take away a maki (with kani avocado and what not), 2 plates of plain inari sushi, 2 plates of inari ebikko, 2 plates of inari kanimayo & 2 plates of kanimayo sushi.. lol..

Since she has been deterred by time factor, we decided to go home.. and snuggle + watch movie / tv series.

Suddenly I got a suprise call.. WENDY!!! so good to hear from her again.. pity her, worked until 10 plus only 'sau kung.'

After that, we reached home, she said "Should've tarpau Kani avocado salad, don't eat there. but then again, have to eat it there and feel like tarpau again for later." hahaha.. greedy-nye ini orang!!

In about half hour or 1 hour, me hungry again.. so we dig out and makan abit of the sushi.. we sat and watched reaper S1.. and popping ebikko together with our front teeth.. I love the feel of popping ebikko!!

I fell asleep halfway through the show, so she continued and then i wake up 5 something to share her bag of twisties.. hahhahahaha..

Then it's time for us both to ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........

Anniversary

This is supposed to be in by 2nd of February but well I am just too lazy..

We had a disagreement..

1st of Feb wil be our 3 mths but she insisted it be 2nd Feb because that's when we started.. hmmm.. really?

So, she decided to take me to 1u, as I have missed Zanmai and it is in fact 1 of my fav place to go..

Staring in front of us, massive traffic and crazy eyed drivers and all, we decided to go to our 2nd most favourite jap restaurant (which i can't remember the name at all but it's in DJ)

If ya all wanna know, I am free for DINNAH!!

And there she is cussing "TODAY IS JUST NOT MY DAY" (earlier she broke her string for her necklace) while staring at the dark shop... So we stand at the stairs and then I said "Let's just go to SS2 ya?"

So we went and before we are there, i cracked a joke, just don't tell me this place is close too... AND THEN THERE IT WAS.. dim lighting and yes, you guessed right.. IT'S CLOSED..

I was near to bursting in laughter when she cussed again as above + "B, you mouth damn sewel." Can't help it such coincidence right?

So not sure where to go.. She suggested JayaOne.. which i am never a fan of.. i just don't like those hidden corners.. like hiding something.. perfect for having affairs though.. unseen *ahem* muaahaahaahahaa.. So i suggested, Jaya33, Nagomi!!

So there we went.. and then... THANK GOD IT'S OPEN..

We ordered a salmon for me and beef for her and we're both eating merrily (me anyways, she was rushing cos we reached after 9.30 and she feel bad because we are the last customer) then she said "B, i'm not feeling well."

~!@#$%^&*()_+

What a day for her.. so we go back, she was driving real fast and balik rumah sapu ubat lor..

You should see her face when she smell the ointment.. HAHAHA..

Jangan marah *chuckle*